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Wednesday, 07 May 2008

Its over.

Tuesday, 6th May 2008

Mum; the one who crushed my tears

I've been crying like mad about this the whole day really.
I just wonder what went wrong. He made me wait for a month now, and our anniversary was just last week.
And the embarrassing part is? I actually tried to talk to him about this.
I really wanted things to work between us. But no, he never gave me that chance.

Well, like I always do. The first babe I'd ever call to cry my eyes out on, was always Kelly.
I felt stupid crying really, cause among all of them, she was the one who told me I should have ended it earlier on.
But I thank God that she was still there to listen.
Right after her, was Sir Joel. He was busy at first, but then again he spared time just to listen to my sobbing.
Hehhh. Got into the tuition centre and my face was so darn red. Decided to go to the other
classroom and called Farhan up. Later I wanted to call JLO. But instead we text-ed.
Hehhhh. You'll never wanna know what he said. Intimidating really.
I just couldn't stop thinking about this.
But then again, I still concentrated. Seeing exams were just next week.

Got back home and asked mum if we could 'talk'. She understood me well.
And out they came; my tears.
They just ran down as if I've lost self control. And mum was there to hug me, and shared experiences of her own.
I felt so fortunate really. She's been through heck loads more than I ever had, and I rarely see her tears fall.
She told me since its like that, why not cancel the trip to Singapore?
As much as I want to since its for the best, but, that urge is still there.
The urge of wanting to see him again.
You had no idea how excited I was. Having to wait for 2 months just so that I could see him again.
Everything seem so fine.
I knew there was something wrong ever since I asked if we were still ok.
And even if he assured me we were fine, I just knew there was something wrong.

Wednesday, 7th May 2008

Eu-Jane; the babe who gave me strength

Early morning in school. Yes, I told Eu-Jane.
The first thing she noticed was my expression when I came up to her. Though she didn't know why.
We were stuck talking about it for awhile. Even she called him a jerk.
Got into class, never saying a word. Just did record duties and on with my homework.
After break, thats when I decided to see Puan Shirley
(now that she's under guidance till she becomes full time in counselling.
And no, I had no guts to talk about this to Puan Tan )
We were in the room for awhile. I felt so stiff at first really. But I was more comfortable to share it with
Puan Shirley cause I KNEW she wouldn't go to conclusion saying "You're too young for this!"
But slowly I began to pour it all out. And thats when I started to fall.
Like others, she picked me up. And as usual she told me its not the end of the world.
But unlike other teachers, she roughly told me this,
"You have all the time to look for that special someone. And when you really do, thats when your heart knows."
And of course, she ended the time by advising me to take it as a learning experience.
Goshhhh, I really am comfy with her

When I got back to class I handed my permission slip to Puan Norhana for being excused during her period.
Sat in and just started minding my own business.
Later on Melissa found out about it (she'd find out sooner or later) and asked for details.

Well I had more reminders about the matter when I went for BM tuition.
OBVIOUSLY I didn't tell En. Zulkifi that it was over. And when he reminded me about Singapore & Myanmar
I was like RARRRRRRRRRRRWWWWW. Then I explained why.
*laughs*
Overall, it was seriously, a depressing day.

He caused my misery,
Catarina

Monday, 05 May 2008

Odd odd day

Sony E's K550; Finally mine!

Yes yes yes yes yes YES YOU HEARD ME!
The phone finally came after 2 months of waiting like an idiot after so long!
When dad told me the phone came I was like,
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! "
*jumpsaroundandround*
Hehhhhhh. But mum was like saying how there were terms & conditions if I ever wanted to keep the phone.

Terms & Conditions
1. Not allowed to listen to music while sleeping (I always have a hard time falling asleep. Hehhhh)
2. Must not listen to music 24-7 when walking at the side of the roads or
at anywhere else when attention is needed from me
3. If any of the terms above are broken, phone shall be confiscated for the REST OF MY LIFE!

Now No.2's a long story.
Ever since I got the LG phone (mum's phone bill got her the phone), the handset came along with it.
And EVER SINCE THEN, my ears were practically "glued" to the earphones. Not a day would you have seen me without those earphones, just listening to my tunes as if the world was 'out of tune'.
Heck, even in the train to Singapore I was blasting my tunes
like no one's business (it was a 15 hour train ride. You would have done the same thing.)
So one day mum dropped me off at the roadside cause I needed to head back home
Despite my stupidity, I wore my earphones while walking home.At the side of the busy road.
And yes, the music was blasting out loud.
AND YES, mum was bloody pissed.
She was horning me up but I didn't hear the horn.She then called my name over and over,and yeah, I didn't
hear that too. So she pulled out my earphones and started screaming her lungs out lecturing me.
I know I know very irresponsible of me to do that. I've learned my lesson already!
So kids, don't follow this example of mine. Your mothers would kill/hunt me down if anything were to happen.
pffffffft

Well main reason I want the phone is because of it camera functions and music player.
It's been a long time since I've used Sony E.
But,gahhhhhhhhhhh somehow I like the LG phone that I'm using now. The push up function's like so so COOL!
*laughsoutloud*
But seriously I've been getting a lot of feedback on how nice the LG phone is. Black and sexy really *mreeeoww*
Plus its a 3G phone. Even though I don't really use 3G communications but at least I can use it as an internal camera to check if I look alright. Thats one benefit of having the internal camera *lawwl*
Gahhhhhhh. Im'ma give the Sony E phone a go. If its not up to my expectation, then I'll go back to the LG phone.
As much as I wanna use both whenever I feel like changing, mum doesn't allow it.
But heck, if I wanted to I could exchange it with her whenever I need it

Well other than that I started my new Sejarah (history) tuition with En Zulkifi at 5pm.
I know the subject should be self studied, but I'm so lazy! *laughs*
But seriously the class was alright. Seeing that there was only two students including myself. More concentration!
OMG, when class ended I walked out and saw Wei Chien in the other room. Gahhhh I never knew he went to the same tuition as I did. Hehhhh.

OH YEAH. School was odd today. Pei Yong was a wee bit crazy when she said I had furoi boobs.
The word furoi is in Japanese. Meaning old.
She's saying I have OLD BOOBS?! What the fuck is wrong with her bloody mind nowadays
But then again, its not like I never shot back right?

Pei Yong: Cat cat! You have furoi boobs.

Me: What the hell are you talking about?

**finds out from Soo Sian aka the Japenese freak about the word furoi**

Me: At least I have boobs unlike you flatt. *snickers with Faizah*

Pei Yong: Hey I got boobs wann kay just small nia.

Me: Hey you've heard of layers of fats in our body before right? Thats YOUR boobs.

*laughs louder with Faizah*

Pei Yong: At least mine not old wann. Mine fresh wann! * molests herself*

*non-stop laughing with Faizah*

Me: Oiiiit mine are fresh k! Yours not even ripe yet! *Nyahahahahahaahahaha*

We laughed non-stop about the whole fresh boobs thing really! Faizah told her she has a furoi ass.
*smacksforehead*
Pei Yong started off being weird today when she said she had 2 other names.
One, Cherrelle Tan Pei Yong.
Two, Tan Catarina.
Then she started explaining how she had MANY MANY dads that caused her to have more odd names.
*laughsassoff*
She's adorable isn't she?

Give me a Pei Yong clap!
Pei-puhh puhhh Pei Yong flat flat
*CLAP*

I told you today was odd,
Catarina

Sunday, 04 May 2008

Enrollment Sunday

I shouldn't have gone for it really. Probably its because I was in a fucking bad mood
and that I had a little TOO MANY offences during my uniform check.
I HAD 14 OFFENCES! *laughs*
Wanna know something better? BB members get to pump according to the number offences multiplied by 5.
We NCOs on the other hand, multiply by 10! Dammmmn. Meaning I had to do like 140pumps!
Even Daniel Ooi & Victor were like OMG. Chastan got 21 offences man! *lmaolmaolmao*
But in the end, everyone forgotten about it
Today's speaker was a Singaporean pastor, George Ong
Gosh he was so so sarcastic! Really made me laugh! I was mostly standing in the service since I needed to take pics.
Well other than the usual routine of what happens during the service, we had lunch downstairs, and later headed back to the sanctuary for the awards & promotions. Chastan & Daniel Chan were the emcees of the day
And I got me 3 Year Service & Arts & Crafts *weeeeeeeeee*
And OMG, Dex Mah was in tears when he got promoted to Seargent. *snickers*
Even though we fought a lot (and found ways of embarrassing one another), I still congratulated him.
Sporting aren't I
Well other than award presentation, we had a cake celebration too. This time it was two cakes!
One, of course, for Enrollment Sunday.
Two, it was Sir John's birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIR!

Gahhhhhh. THICK THICK CHOCOLATE CAKE! *droooools*
Too bad I didn't get to have any
Well after the cake celebration we went outside the parking lot to watch the drill team perform.
Mind you, this is the drill team that's gonna represent BB 18th Penang in BB PESTA in Sabah!
Just too bad I'm not going for it this year
**sorry to the BB guys from Malacca and KL! It was a last minute change

Hehhhh. Something's wrong really. I'm starting to lose that feeling. Not that I want to. But its been a month now.
And this time, its him that's making me do this.

History repeats?
Catarina

Saturday, 03 May 2008

Study group in Coffee Bean

Her captured reflection

Got up at 11am today (after minutes of non-stop nagging from mum trying to wake me up)
The usual routine in the morning. Breakfast with dad, got dressed and headed for Gurney
Plan was to study with my beloved Farhan at Coffee Bean. Though, plans always change right?
First stop in Gurney was to go to the Digi Centre to pay my bill. James was on duty today so he handled my bill.
While the receipt was being printed out,
he asked, "So that guy in your friendster's the one you told me about right? The one from Singapore."
I was like and said ," Yeahhh thats him. How did you know? Wait you can still remember me?"
He was like," Yeahh I still can. So thats him? He's a lucky guy!"
And I'm thinking, "Shit. Even Digi knows about my boifey "
Then we started talking about cheaper ways of communicating with my boifey. He recommended GPRS msn-ing.
*laughs*

Later I went down to hand in my memory card that consisted pictures of the moral project.
Oooh while waiting I saw this cute lil boy in his baby cart. AND AS USUAL, I made him laugh
Well uploaded the pictures and started choosing the ones I needed. It was only RM0.50 for each piece!
Dammmn I pity Cherrelle. She had to pay hers for RM1.50 for each piece! She felt like she was being cheated!
pfffffffffft.

Well I was waiting for Farhan to arrive so I was walking around the 7th floor.
Bumped into Reno. He was asking me where studio is (but not knowing which one )
Turns out he meant by Studio R ! He was meeting up with this japanese girl so he asked me to tag along.
And there, I met a new friend. Maaya
Decided to have lunch. Had a hard time picking so we ended up eating at Chilis.
Maaya suggested a few dishes that we should try and all. It wasn't bad really.
Turns out she and I had loads in common and talked for like...practically the whole time.
Best of all? WE HATE LALAS!
Gahhhh I pity Reno *laughs*

Later Farhan came over. Talked for awhile more before paying our bill.
Headed to the 7th floor. Reno was demonstrating his break dancing skills with his friend Ken.
Gahhhh Ken's sooooooo adorable!
While they were fooling around outside, Farhan,Maaya & I went into the arcade and RACED!
Of course, Farhan doesn't wanna admit that he lost (after two games)
*muahahahaa*
Bumped into David & his friend (don't know the name,sorry)
Minutes later we headed down to Coffee Bean for our study group. Leaving Reno & Maaya behind
David left minutes after we got into Coffee Bean so it was just me and Farhan.
We got into studying after ordering my Pure Chocolate . Was suppose to be on a strict diet after the incident of eating too much at BBQ Chicken, but.....its chocolate for crying out loud!
We only live once

We were in the serious study mood......UNTIL, Maaya,Reno & Ken came over!
Thats when Farhan lost his mood of studying. Hehhh, though I still continued.
They were making me laugh heck loads about the teachers in their school and all.
While they were slacking in Coffee Bean, Maaya & I went down to the photo shop to collect my picutres.
Talked about ahem ahem on the way back to CB. While I was still studying they were practically slacking
while crapping about stuff. They really really really, made me lmao

Our study junk

Farhan; the bitch I adore And his creation

Maaya; the awesome Japanese chick

I told you I'll study. Pffffft.

Stopped studying at like 6plus since Farhan's stomach was growling. pfffft.
So we went down to the food court. Maaya had to go off so Reno walked her home.
*Awwwww*

Well I left at 7pm. Dad picked me up and we headed home.

And, goodness gracious me.
9 MORE DAYS TO MID TERMS!
Gahhhhh. I cannot wait for his exams to end. But will we be back to normal? As in, like we used to be?

I hope so.

Overcoming paranoia,
Catarina

Friday, 02 May 2008

MID YEAR EXAMS

Eu-Jane; the babe who gives me confidence

Started off my morning by dropping off my advertisments to Puan Ng. Got to chat with Eu-Jane about him.
And as usual, she was there to comfort and assured me things would be alright. She's awesome
Nothing much really happened in school
today other than the irritating practices which I was forced by that bloody ass witch
asked to stay back by Puan Lim. Well my choir juniors could tell I was in a bloody bad mood myself.
I was already pissed when they couldn't shut their mouths up, so my anger sort of....raged.
Sorry girls. I was just in a bad mood
But I had fun chatting with Eu-Jane,Yin Yin & Suk Yin before practice started.
We were talking about how we show our love and always remember it in our hearts and minds...
NOT ON A PIECE OF PAPER. (wanna know what we talked about?Ask me!)
*laughstillstomachaches*

After practice I slacked a bit with Poorrnima & the rest. Later mum picked me up from school and we were on
our way home. Thats when mum decided to take a 'short cut' that got us into a massive jam in front of
Han Chiang High School. Thats when mum and I were thinking whether it'd be great if I transfered.

Here are the reasons WHY I wanna transfer

1. I hate Puan Lim (aka our choir teacher)
2. Honestly speaking, I have more friends from other schools who are closer to me,than the ones in my class.
3. The uniforms from Han Chiang ain't bad really. I prefer skirts over dresses.
4. Its co-ed. Meaning less chances of being/turning into a bisexual *laughs*
5. Somehow I feel like starting over, eventhough I'm already in my senior year.
6. Did I mention how I hate Puan Lim?

So far these are the reasons I came up with. Plenty more from where that came from really.
Its not that I want that school among all my choices. Seriously my frist choice wouldn't even be in Malaysia.
It's in Singapore babehhh
But then again, even mum was thinking it wasn't a bad idea to go for Han Chiang. All I gotta find out is that
whether chinese language is compulsory as a subject there. If it isn't, here I come!
*snickers*

Oooh yeah and we've decided the venue of where we're staying during holidays in Singapore.
When Uncle William said we should make the bookings at CDANS Country Club, I searched
via Internet and turns out, it was in Bukit Batok! *rollsoverlaughing*
I never expected it to be there of ALL PLACES! Which,in a way, is a good thing

Text-ed him but as usual no reply. Goodness Sec3 in Singapore is so stressing. I gotta understand him.
Was slacking around at home and got online. Chat with Kelly for awhile about.
Did some other crap downstairs and later headed for Math tuition at 8.30pm
Everything's alrighty really.....

FUCKKKKK.
MID YEAR EXAMS are coming in....10 days starting from today.
There's even exams on Saturday. SATURDAY!
What idiot puts exams on a Saturday? Probably its because its Wesak Day, gahhhhhhhhhh.
I can't wait for exams to be O-V-E-R.
And I so can't wait for my holidays to B-E-G-I-N.

Exam tension begins,
Catarina